Sakit Yang Bermanfaat

Alhamdulillah. Manusia itu memang layak diuji. Semoga setiap ujian itu mendatangkan kebaikan. Kebaikan dan manfaat yang diperoleh bergantung pada cara kita menerima dan menghadapi ujian. Semoga ujian-ujian yang kita sedang dan akan hadapi mendekatkan kita pada Pencipta. Ya Allah, please always be by my side, assist me to complete my tasks, even in this kind of condition, don't let me go astray, don't allow me to give up. 

p.s: I love You, my Love, Allah.


Regards,
Me, Your slave.

The Day I Couldn't Sleep.

It’s almost 3 am on June 25th but the eyes are still wide open. I used to fall asleep effortlessly, as fast as five minutes or lesser than that. I found it bizarre if any of my friends said that they have sleep disorder. I said it was weird. All you have to do is lie down and within minutes, or even seconds, you are in your dreamland. But today marked the day I raised the white flag. It can happen to anyone. I believe this is happening due to what happen since I got back from work at 6.15 pm, June 24th.

Chronicles of sleep disorder.

6.15pm: Arrived home, safe and sound. Pray. Watching Dapur Selebriti (alert: it made you famish like seriously). Watching Naruto. Eating everything edible.

7.45pm: After Maghrib, instead of taking shower and have a good chat with Kak Ija, the housemate, like I regularly do, instead of doing that, I am doing sleeping. It was a good four hours. Sleep like a log.

12.00pm: Like falling from a roller coaster ride, I am awake with a puzzle face. I dream of something I can’t really remember. But one second I feel like falling from somewhere, another second I am fully awake. It was just a dream. It took seconds to bring myself into reality. I was surprise with the condition of the room and wondering who the owner of this chaotic room is.

12.15pm: The broom in one hand and piles of clothes in another. Cleaning, sweeping and doing the laundry for good reason. In a flash, the room is in its best and liveable state. Relieve.

12.30pm: Taking a good long bath. Bathing and singing made a good combination. What so called hidden talent. Do not try this at home.

1.15am: Feel refreshed and am ready for prayer. Do some self reflection and some thinking of everything that have happened and lesson behind every little occurrence, and some of future thinking too.

1.45am: Too hungry and was looking for something to eat. End up eating the whole packet of crackers and two slice of bread with curry that Kak Ija made for dinner. Alhamdulillah.

2.00am: The mind is ready for bed yet the eyes are not. Last resort, continue reading THE LAST LECTURE by Randy Pausch. I was inspired by the story in Chapter 11: The Happiest Place on Earth, page 51. Here’s a quote;

In 1969, when I was eight years old, my family went on a cross-country trip to Disneyland. It was an absolute quest. And once we got there, I was just in awe. It was the coolest environment I’d ever been in.

As I stood in line with all the other kids, all I could think was “I can’t wait to make stuff like this!”

Two decades later, when I got my PhD in computer science from Carnegie Mellon, I thought that made me infinitely qualified to do anything, so I dashed off my letters of application to Walt Disney Imagineering. And they sent me some of the nicest go-to-hell letters I’d ever received. They said they had reviewed my application, and they did not have “any positions which require your particular qualifications.”

Nothing? This is a company famous for hiring armies of people to sweep the streets! Disney had nothing for me? Not even a broom?

So that was a setback. But I kept my mantra in mind: The brick walls are there for a reason. They’re not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something.

Pheww! I can’t believe that I was typing the whole sentences. How diligent is that? But seriously, I am touched. Every word in this book made me reflect, and laugh, and sad, and happy, and grateful, and in lieu of it all, inspired. And of course, Randy ended up being allowed to join the Disney team. And as fantasy comes true, he was Disney Imagineer.

Well, back to reality. For the countless time I kept looking at the clock. An hour has passed. Thus far, I am not sleepy at all, but guess that I have to stop writing. I have to be at Shah Alam KTM station latest by 8 in the morning tomorrow, I mean today. Good night everybody! Or good morning!

Buku tentang hidup. Random but...

Ada lima buku kesemuanya. Blink – Malcom Gladwell. The Gift – Cecilia Ahern. The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett. The Last Lecture – Randy Pausch dan satu-satunya novel yang dibeli kerana kawan, Contengan Jalanan – Hlovate. Tak tahu nak baca yang mana dulu. Tapi akhirnya Contengan Jalanan juga dicapai. Main pilih je. Random. Novel Contengan Jalanan tu baru saja habis dibacanya. Part I – Fend 262 muka surat disambung terus part II – K² 291 muka surat. Total 453 muka surat. Dia memang budak engine, atau engineering nama panjangnya. Kalau boleh semua mesti nak di calculate. Kononnya. Kalau tak kerana weekendyang maknanya tak perlu kerja, mana mungkin nak sentuh buku. Diluar bilik kakak-kakakhousemate masih lagi layan Mentor final Musim 5. Dibiarkan.

Jarang dia nak buat review tentang buku. Tapi buku yang satu ni memang lain. Katanya buku tentang hidup. Tentang pengalaman perjalanan mencari Tuhan. Watak-watak utama yang menghidupkan cerita; Fend, K², Chad, Aidid. Tadi banyak idea nak review fasal buku ni. Banyak yang nak dihuraikan. Tiba-tiba blank. Mungkin sebaik-baik review adalah; baca sendiri dan buat review sendiri. Sebab buku yang sama, membawa makna dan erti yang berbeza, bagi pembaca yang berbeza. Bagi dia, dia betul-betul teringatkan adik lelaki yang sorang tu. Yang minatnya juga pada muzik dan jamming. Tapi belajar Aircraft Engineering. Walaupun belajar Aircraft Engineering, tapi hati dan jiwa tetap setia dengan gitar dan band yang ditubuhkannya entah sejak bila. Since 2000 something pastinya. Memang dia berjiwa muzik dan skate. Tapi...

Tapi... janganlah kerana passion yang dua itu kita skip tanggungjawab yang lima waktu tu. Itu ignorance namanya. Like seriously. Ni mulalah dia nak bagi nasihat panjang lebar kat adik sendiri. Tanpa dipinta. Saja nak bagi advice free. Teringat tagline saifulislam.com; erti hidup pada memberi.

My dear bro, whose name is not mentioned,

The man who decided to change on the 12^th hour dies on the 11^th. Meminjam bait-bait kata dari Contengan Jalanan. Ayat ni momentous . Carrying great weight. Indeed, berfikirlah. Tak jadi akhirnya nak positive mumbling dengan panjang lebar sebab esok dah Isnin. Monday means mayday. It is the toughest day. Undeniably, unquestionably tough. Juga bermakna kena dapat tidur yang cukup untuk mengharungi hari yang kurang seronok nak dibanding dengan hari Jumaat. To you bro, you are indeed very smart. Think sensibly, act wisely. Always. Not sometime. Not for a moment or two.

Pesanan mesra dari Sis lebih pada untuk diri sendiri sebenarnya. Again, the man who decided to change on the 12^th hour dies on the 11^th. Semoga kita semua sempat change on the 8^th hour, or 9^th hour, or 10^th hour, or 10.30^th hour, or to be exact, before our last breath. Cause at the end, life is too short. So live, learn.

Talking is nothing, doing is something. – Hlovate.

p.s: semakin banyak pulak manglish yang digunakan. sigh.

p.s.s: 262+291 equal 553, actually. heh ;)

God Please Let Me Die As A Believer

Again I have abandoned this blog for quite some time. Again I use the same excuse and blame the same thing, which is time. But of course, the blame is always on me. The hiatus is always for a sensible reason. By the way, since last week I've been struggling for my Final Year Project presentation, and also not to forget, EXAMS! Despite the time that is moving way too fast, I found myself trying to write something beneficial in this blog.

I am writing this as a response after watching The Divine Book: The Wakeup Project. It is indeed an unprecedented journey through faith. Consist of opinions from many intelligent and scholars, both Muslim and non-Muslim, from Sheikh Ahmed Deedat, Dr. Krish Kandiah, Ismael South and Ahmad Thomson to Jay Smith, Karen Armstrong, and many more. How God has blessed man with logic and wisdom that they are able to study the Holy Book and reach for truth and wisdom. Imam of North London Central Mosque, Ahmed Saad once said “If you are introducing Islam to someone or someone is embracing Islam, you just tell him, with the testimonial of faith, he has to say, I bear witness that there is no God but Allah, and I bear witness that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah and I bear witness that Jesus is the messenger of God and he is servant just like Muhammad”.

The documentary enlightens the viewers about the similarities between Islam and Christianity rather than differences and division. Both religions follow the same message, coming from the same Creator and pushing for the same aims. But why aren’t the connection and likeness ever highlighted? It is because the dissimilarities, separation, divide and conquer are the motto for some disbelievers. There is only one God, with one message. Yet many deny.

Next, the journey continues with some of the most fascinating scientific breakthrough in the Quran. From the explanation of human embryology, the formation of rain, the ocean and the life-forms within them, nature and science, to the theory of big bang, the expansion of the universe, and the list goes on. All the scientific fact that never been reveals after 20^th century, has been reveals in the Quran many centuries ago. Yet many still deny.

In the name of God, the most Beneficient, the most Merciful.

By the sun and its brilliance, and the moon when it follows the sun, and the day when it revealeth it, and the night when it draws a veil over it, and the heaven and Him Who made it, and the earth and Him Who extended it, and the soul and Him Who made it perfect, then He inspired it to understand what is right and wrong for it, he will indeed be successful who purifies it, and he will indeed fail who corrupts it. (Quran, 91: 1-10)

There are still too many remarkable story and lesson from this 10 short episodes documentary that I want to share, but too little time for me to penning every detail down. Last but by no means least, quoted from the last episode of The Divine Book saying that, it’s due time that Muslims understand, that divided we are as fragile as separate fingers... but united we are a strong fist. And a fist is what is required for what lays ahead. May Allah bless us all. Forever and always. O Allah, please let me die as a believer. Ameen Ya Rahman. Ameen Ya Rahim. Alhamdulillah, finally done with the writing! The night is getting late, so for now

Sleep like a log. Eheh..love the way Luffy sleep.