Showing posts with label my love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my love. Show all posts

Saturday, September 17, 2011

The Last Song.


I officially watched The Last Song two days ago. It’s been in my hard disk and it had used few hundred Megabytes of memory since I don’t know when. Yup it was not a new movie. But somehow I watched it since it’s adapted from the book written by my all time favourite author, Nicholas Sparks. Many people told me how boring the movie was, but for me it was just nice. I even cried hard. It’s just so heart-breaking. Whenever the subject of interest is family, then I couldn’t help myself other than completely being emotional and too immersed in the story, regardless of the plot. Maybe I just miss Abah so much. At the end, I learned that perhaps a more amiss, much scarcer feat; if not patience - is the state of being grateful. So here I am, being grateful for what I have. Alhamdulillah syukur.


Seventeen year-old Veronica “Ronnie” Miller’s life was turned upside-down when her parents divorced and her father moved from New York City to Wilmington, North Carolina. Three years later, she remains angry and alienated from her parents, especially her father… until her mother decides it would be in everyone’s best interest if she spent the summer in Wilmington with him. Ronnie’s father, a former concert pianist and teacher, is living a quiet life in the beach town, immersed in creating a work of art that will become the centerpiece of a local church. The tale that unfolds is an unforgettable story about love in its myriad forms – first love, the love between parents and children – that demonstrates, as only a Nicholas Sparks novel can, the many ways that deeply felt relationships can break our hearts… and heal them. 

Sunday, September 5, 2010

That Day I Will Remember...


It felt like yesterday when I last updated my blog with an exciting post regarding the 1st Ramadhan. Without even realizing it, time indeed flies. Muslims are within the last three days of Ramadhan.

There I was all by myself, supplicating earnestly in my du'a, praying that Allah allows me to reach yet another Ramadhan next year. There is no guarantee though. As one becomes more uncertain as to whether he/she gets to live for yet another day. We all know that death can come to us at any point of time and without any preceding signs. This remind me of what happened last week.

19 Ramadhan 1431H

My heart wrenched with sheer sadness having heard that my grandmother (we all call her embah) has passed on. I received the news just after my E.M exam. Shocked, but quickly gripped my spirit between sadness and relief. There I was at a corner inside my room, wiping over my tears. For such loss, never forget to say "Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rojiuun', reminding ourselves that we all belong to Allah and it is to Him indeed that we shall return.

Embah peacefully sighed her last breath at about 2:30pm on the 19th of Ramadhan. May Allah bestow His bless upon her.

Farewell my dear grandma, rest in peace until the day we all shall meet again.

In life, there will definitely be a day when you might fall down. You cried because you have a cut on your knee, or that the ankle is bruising up. But it isn't the injury or the nature in which you fell that matters, but it is how you get up from it.

And that, is the character of STRENGTH. To get up, when you have fallen down. To cry over something that saddens you is a mercy which Allah puts in the hearts of His servants. And verily Allah shows mercy to those of His servants who are merciful. InshaAllah.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Alhamdulillah.. It's Here.. Ramadhan is Here (^_^)



"Allahumma balighna Ramadhan."

YaAllah, sampaikan kami pada bulan Ramadhan.

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah...

Terima kasih Allah, diatas kesempatan ini. Tidak sangka, Allah memanjangkan umur hingga berjaya menjejak kembali ke dalam bulan yang mulia ini.


It's coming! It's coming!=)
Ramadhan is here!!
It's not just about syaitan diikat
but it's a month filled with Allah's bounties
like its there...
we just need to grab them... as much as we can!

Allah gave long age to the previous people
Nabi Nuh spread the word of Allah for
950 years... that implies he'd probably
lived for more than a thousand years...

so subhanallah, probably ibadah-wise
we'll never be able to catch up with those pious in previous times...

but this is it!
Ramadhan!! Allah opening the doors of oppurtunity
to catch up with those people!!
malam lailatul Qadr...
the blessed night which Allah will reward
as if 1000 years..
the every second throughout the month itself!
so much is there that Allah is wanting to give!!

ya Allah... ya Allah...
give us the strength and opportunity
to use every single second to the fullest!!
Ameen... ya Rabbal Alamin!

like an ugly caterpillar crawling into its pupa...
and thenceforth evolving into a beautiful butterfly!

like us crawling into Ramadhan
and thenceforth evolving into a beautiful individual!

ultimate beauty is the beauty that lies within...
and beauty within can only flourish by the Grace of Allah...
ya Allah, make this Ramadhan means to alleviate us in Your Eyes!

Suburkan siang dengan hablun minannaas.

Suburkan malam dengan hablun minallaah.

Ingin mendakap Ramadhan seerat-eratnya ; )




lebih kasih sayang daripada biasa,
S. F. M
IIUM

Wassalam

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Because of You...


It's 6.14 pm on Sunday the 9th of May. Today equal Sunday equal to Mother's Day. So many words to write... and thoughts to ponder... and emotions to feel... and appreciation to my most beloved, dearly Mak... but so little time. As I wrote this quick, short and brief post, I knew that I would not have enough credit to call my mom and speak for hours. What kind of daughter am I. The time is tik toking in its own rhythm, and I still haven't call Mak and wish her Happy Mother's Day. Ok, InsyaAllah after maghrib prayer I will make a what so called i-miss-you-mak-and-did-you-miss-me?-and-terpaksa cakap laju-laju sebab kredit nak habis ni mak-kind of call. Takpe mak, nanti balik rumah kita chit-chatting lama-lama k? InsyaAllah.

Hmm... for the past few days, my life is like a tenacious roller coaster ride. It's kind of miserable. The hiatus does come justified, believe me. It's been busy. "Lucky" me and my teammates to be the first group to present the case study. Congrats!! After hours of brain storming, the solution for the case is almost complete (at least from what alleged to be called Mechatronics student who studied economics, point of view). To my standard, it is done. Though we are all not sure if it is correctly solved or not. Leave it to my kind lecturer to judge it.

Back to the main interest here, well... to you mom, whom I love infinity much, some things are not meant to be expressed in words for words are merely a verbal interpretation of our thoughts, dreams, and desires. Sometimes… words are just not enough to express that which lies in the heart. Even so… in a flawed and imperfect explanation… thank you for supplicating me with enough protection and love. Thank you for giving me the strength, courage and willpower to stride through my tests, even though I appear my weakest, most timid and inept. May Allah give you strength, patience, health, happiness, and love. Even without Abah at your side, but in my eyes, Mak is always special. You will always be a perfect beautiful mother. I love you from the day I was born, and will always love you till the day of my final breath. If I go before you do, may we met again in the Jannah. InsyaAllah.

Mak,
You'll never know how
strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you have left.


Mak and Dik Amal (1994)


Till then, Wassalam.
Peace ^^