Dear Work

Assalamualaikum, hi!

Tak sangka hari ni dah hari Ahad. Isnin inshaAllah dah start kerja. Kerja, tahukah awak perasaan orang yang cuti raya seminggu then kena pi kerja balik? Sorry in advance kerja, pastinya Isnin ni saya masih mencari-cari mood kerja, pastinya separuh hati dan jiwa saya di rumah, pada nasi impit, pada rendang, dan ayam masak kicap.. pasti saya takde mood nak layan awak kerja. Tapi jangan risau, walaupun begitu, saya masih sedar tanggungjawab saya pada awak. Untuk memastikan rezki saya adalah halal lagi diberkati, terpaksa saya kuatkan hati untuk melayan awak. Saya tak boleh ikutkan sangat perasaan. Kerja yang sambil lewa adalah kerja yang tak ikhlas. Takkan ada keberkatan didalamnya. Jadilah ia kerja yang sia-sia. Semoga Allah jauhkan saya dari sifat malas. Laziness, pi main jauh-jauh! 

Kerja, jadilah baik pada saya. Please be kind to me. Pretty please. Walaupun saya tak pasti, tapi saya agak yang saya dan kawan sekerja Farah kena balik lambat lagi setiap hari. Balik lewat.. just like the days before Ramadhan. Sepanjang bulan puasa memang ada kelonggaran balik awal. Sebab nak kejar iftar dan terawikh. After Ramadhan ni.. susah nak cakap. Tengoklah macam mana keadaan nanti. Semoga supervisor dilembutkan hati untuk tidak memberi kerja yang banyak diluar batas mampu manusia, yang boleh mengakibatkan kerja extra hours. Semoga... 

Sampai disini sajalah monolog kita pada hari ini. Sekian terima kasih. Wassalam.

Eid and Family

Assalamualaikum, hi!

I don't have fancy words. Tak sempat nak berpuisi pujangga.. Just wishing everyone, Eid Mubarak! Eid Mubarak! Selamat hari raya aidilfitri. Maaf zahir dan batin.

Alhamdulillah.. our family has come almost full circle. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

Kalau ada Abah memang complete satu keluarga. Tapi tak mengapa, keluarga yang Allah beri ni sebenarnya adalah anugerah tak ternilai, seadanya. Hmm.. so hard to get a complete family sticks together as one nowadays.. we are all geographically separated. Next year nanti, kakak-kakak kena beraya belah mertua. Lagi dua tahun baru dapat cukupkan semula jumlah siblings waktu raya. InshaAllah kalau masih ada umur, dua tahun lagi kita tangkap gambar cenggini kat tangga yang sama. Heh.. inshaAllah. Got to go for now. Wassalam (^_^)

I am Sam

Assalamualaikum, hi!

Yesterday was Friday. So like every Friday after work, memang akan dramatically run for the car. Nak kejar iftar dan Maghrib. Farah dah tunggu dalam kereta while I'm still in the lab, being stopped and questioned by Senior Engineer regarding some bring up drive program. Since its Friday, so it's kind of predicted to be stuck in the traffic congestion. Having that in mind, I did tried my best to explain everything that I've been working on that day in an extremely fast pace. I was in a rush. I think that Senior Engineer noticed that so he just let me go. I'm sorry man but its Friday and we need to break fast. By the time I got in the car, its 6.45. 

Even though it's expected that we cannot make it in time for break fasting, but it's still kind of sad to break fast on highway. I didn't really brought any food and both of us left our mineral water at home. Good thing Farah brought a yogurt bar. It just one piece and we split it by two. Thanks to Farah that I got to break fast in time.  Every single little thing is a blessing.

I don't know why. Semua cerita di atas tak kena mengena dengan tajuk pun. I wonder why I wrote it in the first place. LOL. Never mind. I just wanted to mention that, by the time I reached home, its already late at night. And before I go to bed, I watched this all time favorite movie I am Sam. The last time I remembered watching this movie was during Form 1 if I'm not mistaken. And like 12 years ago, this movie never fail to make me think and reflect and last but not least, cries a river. Sometimes my emotions catch me by surprise.

This scene made me smile.

One emotional scene here.

Sam: You've grown. 
Lucy: Have I? 
Sam: Yeah, 'cause your ears are bigger and your eyes are older.

This one too... heartbreaking.

Sam: Lucy belongs with me.

Rita: Why?

Sam: OK, remember when Paul McCartney wrote the song "Michelle" and then he only wrote the first part, Annie said. And then he gave that part to John Lennon, and he wrote the part that said, "I love you, I love you, I love you." And Annie said that it wouldn't have been the same song without that... and that's why the whole world cried when the Beatles broke up on April 10, 1970. 

p.s: I was like, what an answer!

Same goes to this one. Touched.

This part of the movie is so emotional too. It's when Lucy just stop reading. 

Lucy: I won't read the word! 
Sam: I'm your father and I'm telling you to read the word. Cause I can tell you to because I'm your father. 
Lucy: I'm stupid. 
Sam: You are not stupid! 
Lucy: Yes, I am. 
Sam: No, you are not stupid 'cause you can read that word. 
Lucy: I don't wanna read it if you can't. 
Sam: No, because it makes me happy! It makes me happy hearing you read. Yeah, it makes me happy when you're reading. 
Lucy: [Lucy reads again] 

This one is freaking funny. 

Joe: Do we get a balloon with these? 
Shoe Salesman: ...Yeah 
Robert: All of us or just her? 

At the end, everyone got balloon.

So I would say, parenting is never easy. Parents sometimes question their decisions and actions ever day. It just became tougher for single mother or father. It can be challenging sometimes to put emotions aside and make decisions that are best for children. It is definitely NOT easy. So when things get tough, just remember what is important, that we all love each other. I learned this from my mom though. She is my everything ❤ 

I still have lots to write, but its getting late. So for now, night and wassalam. Have a meaningful and blessed Ramadhan. (^_^)

p.s: pictures and quotes (I am Sam) courtesy of Pak Cik google. 

Kenangan Terindah

Assalamualaikum, hi!

Tajuk tak boleh terima. Tapi tak mengapalah. Well.. it's been 18 hours and 30 minutes since the last post. Ahh.. rasa terharu dengan kerajinan diri menulis apa yang patut. Sedang hakikat, this is the 5th post in the year 2012! Dah masuk August kot.. Disitu kita dapat menilai level 'kerajinan' (atau kemalasan) diri yep. Alhamdulillah, selain hari ini adalah anniversary 3 bulan 3 hari menjadi seorang Jurutera yang berjiwa fragile, hari ini juga adalah hari ke-16 kita berpuasa. Weeee.. masa memang terbang lajunyaaaaa ya Allah. Time flies by like a vulture in the sky. Ceh.

Ramadhan 1433H ni memang lain sikit dari yang sebelumnya. Bukan apa, selama 24 tahun hidup di bumi Allah ni kita dah melalui pelbagai fasa kehidupan. Zaman bebudak dulu kalau tak puasa Abah kurung dalam bilik buku pastu tutup lampu tutup pintu lalu terus berlalu pergi. Sob sob.. 'kejam' Abah waktu tu. Heh.. Kemudian bila masuk asrama, suasana memang meriah sebab kawan-kawan keliling pinggang. Bajet ramai sangat kawan. Tapi memang ramai pun Alhamdulillah.

Hari berganti hari. Tahun berganti tahun. Akhirnya tiba saat melangkah ke fasa hidup seterusnya. Zaman uni! Apsal ayat macam klasik jek?? Ok zaman kat UIA memang best sangat! Best sangat sampai rasa sedih bila terkenangkan kisah lalu. Bukan sedih as in sedih tapi sedih sebab gembira sebenarnya. Ada kenangan manis, pahit, kenangan pelik pun ada. Ohh rindunya.. rindu roommates, rindu pada Masjid SHAS UIA, rindu pada KOE (Kuliyyah of Engineering), rindu Mahallah Asma', rindu terawikh kat masjid even kadang-kadang skip masjid and just terawikh kat MPH (Multi Purpose Hall Asma') je. Bukan apa, masjid UIA habiskan satu juzu' sehari. Sedangkan kat MPH Asma' surah pendek-pendek je. Nampak sangat tak matured lagi waktu tu. Cetek sungguh pemikiran. Tsk..

Roommates yang diperkatakan tadi. 

Mereka lagiiiii... 

Tahun berganti tahun lagi. Fasa berganti fasa. Dari student ke employee. Ini adalah fasa hidup paling lonely like seriously. Kalau dulu dikelilingi Engineering girlfriends dan roommates yang awesome, sekarang tak dak dah. Bye bye perangai budak-budak dan kawans yang seperangai budak-budak. Bajet perangai dah dewasa sangat sekarang ye. Should be should be. Bukan bajet dewasa lagi. Memang harus berperangai dewasa. Dah nak masuk 14 yo pun October ni. I mean 14 campur seploh. InshaAllah.. jika panjang usia, dapatlah melangkah  ke 24 tahun.

Even though working life couldn't be any better than uni life, tapi perancangan Allah tu memang sangat best sampai tersentuh hati. Terima kasih Allah. Syukur sangat sebab ada kawan best macam Farah kerja kat tempat yang sama. Kami ni dahla se-universiti, se-mechatronics, se-kelas. Out of so many places kat Malaysia, kitorang boleh kerja company sama, malah department juga sama, dalam department tu ada banyak division, division pun nak sama juga. Memang baik sangat Allah ni. Alhamdulillah. 

Kalau takde Farah I bet this phase of life gonna be so dull, boring, takde life some people might say.. So thanks for everything kawanku Farah! As in Farah akan baca pulak post ni. Anyway, I'm not actually alone spending this Ramadhan, after all. During weekdays, I'm spending it with my dear friends, Farah and Paan. Paan stays with us temporarily but we do hope that she'll be a permanent tenure. Satu hari nanti inshaAllah once Paan dapat kerja. Well bila Jumaat tiba je, habis kerja bergegas lari ke kereta Farah and then Farah akan drop kat KTM Kepong Sentral dan train akan membawaku pulang ke rumah halaman. Lari ala-ala nak kejar flight. Ok over je nak exeggerate. Kami tak lari sebenarnya, hanya jalan dengan pace yang laju. 

Apapun, this Ramadhan somehow gives us the chance to reflect on the existence of people that matter the most to us, who loves us for who we are, unconditional. In this sense, we are also reminded of how fortunate we are to still have them around, whereas some people do not share the same fate.   

Kawans.. tak cukup kuota.

And again, tidak semena-mena post ni dah jadi panjang berjela macam karangan sekolah. Sekian dulu. Salam Nuzul Quran dan wassalam.

3 Bulan 3 Hari

Assalamualaikum, hi!

It's been a while. Excuse again for the hiatus. Well.. last time I did said that I need to make an effort to reattach myself with reading and writing activities (konon-konon kan), just like the old days. But yeah.. easier said than done. For undone effort, I blamed my work that seems so endless. Endless la sangat. Tapi memang sangat-sangat kot. Banyak sungguh kerja yang perlu dikerjain. True story. But deep inside my heart, I know that there's no one else to blame but me. Laziness just won't leave me alone. Tsk tsk..

Semenjak dua tiga menjak ni rasa macam masa selalu mencemburui. Sedar tak sedar dah masuk bulan keempat pun kerja kat bumi Pee-Jay ni. Satu benda kat PJ ni, tahap traffic jam dia memang awesomeness la kan. Biasa kat Gombak, idak ler jam mana pun. Aman damai je keadaan lalu-lintas. Memang ambil masa juga nak adapt to this kind of environment.

Alhamdulillah hari ini genapla 3 bulan 3 hari menjadi pekerja kilang WD. A'ah memang betulla WD tu abbreviation for Western Digital. Heh.. Tugas sebagai seorang Engineor 1 memang sungguh mencabar tahap kesabaran, keimanan, kekentalan, dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Memang kena kuat mental, fizikal tak sekuat Jong Kook pun tak mengapalah. Tapi mental dan emosi kena in a tiptop condition. Jika tak tiptop nanti boleh mental breakdown. Ok tak sengaja exaggerate secara melampau. Namun, sedikit sebanyak itulah realiti seorang Engineor kilang. Apsal macam cerita sedih je ni?

This is supposed to be a very happy-blissful-joyful-cheerful kind of story, bukannya depressing-gloomy-heartbreaking kind of tale. But then again, sedikit sebanyak itulah realiti. Ulang lagi ayat yang sama. Penat sungguh rupanya bekerja ni. Asyik nak looking forward weekend je. Menghitung hari lagi bila nak Jumaat ni. Sob sob.. ayat semua nak yang sedih-sedih je. Tak tak.. I'm not complaining, just ventilating my thought. *Grin*

Ni kat bawah ada senarai tugas-tugas berat mata membaca, berat lagi bahu memikul. Sebagai Engineer 1 di Asia R&D - SPW Department, anda hendaklah:

Buat rujukan sesiapa yang mungkin apply for this position in the future, fikirlah 2, 3, 4 ratus kali dahulu. Ok gurau je ye. Best dan tak boring sebenarnya kerja ni sebab setiap hari akan berdepan case yang berbeza (macam kes mahkamah pulak), maksudnya kalau ada FA (failure analysis), case FA ni akan berbeza-beza, so different approach. There's no fix approach for FA. All depends on type of failure. Kadang-kadang failure tu adalah first time berlaku, makanya kena kreatif dan kritis dalam menganilisa failure tersebut. Kena kuatkan hati je sebab FA selalu mengakibatkan emotional breakdown, mental breakdown, dan lain-lain. Just lately, dah tak perform sangat FA sebab ada task lain. Fuuu.. kurang sikit gangguan mental dan emosi for the time being. 

I did this! Will keep doing it.. ;)

Dengan tak sedarnya dah jadi post yang panjang berjela. Sekianlah dulu. Till we meet again. Wassalam ;)